| o28. |
[10 Dec 2009|10:42pm] |
i'm home. thank fucking merlin. i think my mum blew out my eardrums shrieking like a banshee at me but i don't give a shit about it.
abigail, how's cake?
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| o27. |
[08 Dec 2009|04:31pm] |
[warded to theodore, draco, and pansy]
you lot okay? i wasn't allowed to warn you, i didn't even really know what shacklebolt's plan was. i just gave him all the information i bloody could.
i'm in the creature-induced injuries ward.
but tonight i get to fucking go home.
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| o26. |
[30 Nov 2009|10:35pm] |
[warded to kingsley shacklebolt]
monday afternoon, december 7th. they plan to hit the ministry, i think they've got about 20 of us them. at least a few werewolves, the vampire bird, adrian and orson will probably be in on it. lestrange has been talking to us about it for a couple days now and they finally figured out when and confirmed it all tonight.
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| o25. |
[28 Nov 2009|11:10pm] |
[warded to theodore]
happy birthday, mate. it's today, right? i don't really have a calender. i uh, can't really send you anything. and i don't have anything to send. unless you want this stick. or a rock. you could paint it and it'd be a brilliant fucking paper-weight, right?
anyway, i don't have much to report, or whatever. still alive and here, shacklebolt's working with me, but the death eater's have gotten really quiet. i think they don't much know what they're doing. if i made this whole deal with the minister and then end up not having a single bit of bloody information to give him, i'm going to be fucked. and bloody angry. but mostly fucked.
but uh, don't worry about that. yeah. how're you? how's pansy?
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| o24. |
[08 Nov 2009|10:21pm] |
[warded to draco and theodore]
so i'm talking to the minister. he said since you two already know, you can uh- still know. but no one else is supposed to know anything about it. because then i could be found out and get killed, or be put in prison or all of that. so i'm keeping up with blythe that i'm still working with this lot, and i don't want to give pansy any details, but could you tell her that we're working on it? i'd tell her what's going on, but i can't let anything fuck this up.
i've given him a list and i'm going to give him whatever information i've bloody got on these people.
that includes naming orson, and adrian. and vince's dad. rabastan was the one who killed charis. fucker's clueless. anything else i should know while i'm doing this?
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| o23. |
[02 Nov 2009|02:33am] |
[warded to kingsley shacklebolt]
i know melinda's already written to you about this or at least she told me she did, but i can't wait. charis burke is dead because of them and she was one of my best mates and if you can make sure i don't go to fucking prison, i'll do anything i bloody can to fuck these twats up because i'm scared i don't know what the fuck to do anymore. i ran away because anthony goldstein tried to arrest me at the auction when i was looking for my mates and then i made a mistake defending myself so i thought i was fucked anyway. i'm not them. i want them to piss off and i just want to come the fuck home and i want my fucking friends to stop dying.
i never killed anyone. i know i wasn't the ideal citizen and shit and yeah i don't like muggleborns, but i never fucking killed anyone over it.
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| o22. |
[26 Oct 2009|07:55pm] |
[warded to adrian, orson, and charis]
is this what we fucking signed up for?
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| o21. |
[26 Oct 2009|07:36pm] |
[warded to pansy, draco, theodore, beatrice, abigail, daphne]
i didn't fucking see that coming. i couldn't give a shit about kirke, but at lease savage was always ni good to vince and greg. that was all greyback by himself, there wasn't a fucking plan there wasn't any bloody fucking reason other than the mentalcase deciding to get revenge for some stupid shit about hortense's journal.
purebloods. fucking purebloods. this is why i fucking ran in the first place, they asked me to help them, and what the fuck was i going to say? no? go fuck yourselves? if that's not welcoming them to slaughter my own mum or dad - yeah, i thought maybe i could knock off a few self-righteous gryffindor blood traitors or mudbloods while i was at it, but then i found out they're all shitheads without a plan, they're pathetic. they don't know what the hell they're doing anymore. have they even gone after anyone not a kid in the last six fucking months?
i just want to come home, but
i'm done with this. but i don't know what the fuck else i can bloody do. if i come back i'll be put in jail or they'll come after me.
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| o20. |
[09 Oct 2009|11:13am] |
[warded private]
nineteen years old. fuck. i guess i at least don't ever need to worry about mum talking about me getting married now. those owls were always so annoying.
i thought i'd be sabotaging more buildings or mudblood stores or soemthing by now. these people haven't done shit. i don't know if they're going to do shit. course, if i go back now, they'll hunt me or my parents the hell down and kill us for not appreciating their not doing shit.
happy fucking birthday.
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| o19. |
[05 Oct 2009|04:01pm] |
[warded private]
i'm such a fucking idiot.
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| o18. |
[04 Oct 2009|07:50pm] |
[warded private]
so this is what it's like being one of the dark lord's warriors, huh? fuck me. i was just supposed to let them in then subtly help out here and there. goldstein wasn't supposed to fucking try and arrest me right away - i had to fucking defend myself and then i just lost it and i couldn't fucking stand the sight of the one-eyed freak and
i might have been able to get away with it if i hadn't used that damn curse. but it's the only bloody magic i'm any good at and look what happened. there's nothing for me with that lot and the fucking ministry work programme. i'm good at punching and knocking skulls together and that's it. the dark lord was winning. he was supposed to win and then i'd be a death eater and i'd be fucking good at it. that's all i fucking goddamn wanted and now i've got it and i'm sitting here asking my friends for food and money and can never go back to my stupid parents ever again or i'll go to jail. this isn't what i fucking wanted.
but no one cares anyway. even the people who testified for me, besides theo or pansy, i guess. the girls just want me to beat up people for stupid reasons, and i can't even do that these days because i'd be put on trial again. i don't shop, or have tea or get married or whatever, what else am i supposed to do with them? then irwin and will are going all poncey on me and making nice with the people we all wanted to fucking beat up or talk shit about in school. that's all well and good for them and i get it. will's parents were killed, i get it. but they can't still be my mate and go crying to the people who want me in prison. even if they send me a fucking cat.
shit, my cat.
mum knows how to take care of a baby cat, i think.
i don't know. even if i hadn't cursed anyone, goldstein was trying to arrest me anyway. if that's what was going to happen every time the death eaters did something, i might as well make it worth it. keeping my head down, not touching anyone, not having much money and being looking at like a fucking criminal all the time is probably just as bad as hiding out in the woods. at least here i can do what i want.
maybe i really could stay with theodore when he gets his house back.
and rot away in his basement. for fuck's sake.
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| o17. |
[04 Oct 2009|07:26pm] |
[warded to theodore, pansy, blythe, and beatrice]
are you all okay? i had to leave and hide. goldstein tried to arrest me before i even fucking did anything last night. can you guys owl me some food or something? don't tell anyone, though, you could get in trouble. i can't go home or i wouldn't ask.
sorry about maximuth, theo. bender's got spunk.
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| o16. |
[19 Sep 2009|04:17pm] |
[warded to the death eaters]
i'm confused. why will cresswell's mum?
brill about the rest though.
and let me know what i should be looking for in the archives.
and i wanna send an owl sometime, dammit.
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| o15. |
[19 Sep 2009|03:55pm] |
[warded private]
what the fuck. i mean, i guess it's good that mr. lestrange wasn't pissed i didn't get anybody killed last week, but, i had no bloody idea they were planning this. and why would they pick the fucking parents they did? why will's? because he told pansy she was being a bitch? merlin's balls, she is, who the fuck bloody cares? i prefer her that way, at least. i mean, i knew irwin and will being complete fucking idiots and acting like they're "good guys" and shit these days was going to piss us all off, but i guess i didn't realise the death eaters paid attention to it.
still didn't deserve to have his mum killed.
the rest of them can piss the hell right off, because that's what they get for not taking people like mr. lestrange fucking seriously in the first place. i mean, sure, if it'd been me, i'd go straight for weasley's, granger's, and bones's parent, but at least they got goldstein's. yeah. i got asked loads of questions about the hogwarts stuff, and you know, if it weren't for the 'techniques' they've been shoving down my throat in anger management, i might have said or done something to give me away.
irwin was supposed to stick next to me so he didn't fucking get poisoned, the twat of an idiot. i coulda killed him.
i don't know what the hell all the girls expect me to fucking do, though. millicent, go beat him up, he's being mean again - well, what, he's my mate, plus as much as i'd love to knock someone's teeth in or hit some loser's face until they're bleeding out their ears, i can't or i'll fucking get put in jail. don't they get that? it's not like school where all i'll get is detention, suspension, or at it's worse (or best, depending) expelled. so what do they want me to do, look mean at 'em? it's not scary if i can't fucking back it up, and they're already not taking me seriously anymore. if they only knew what i could still do. who i know. the death eaters contacted me. me. not even pansy or malfoy. they talked to blythe and charis, but i was the only one they asked to do something.
the world is such shit right now.
we were supposed to win.
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| o14. |
[14 Sep 2009|08:11pm] |
[warded to rabastan lestrange]
sorry no mudbloods died. let me know what else i can do. i'm at the ministry at the moment.
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| o13. |
[10 Sep 2009|12:33am] |
[warded to irwin]
been awhile, mate. you work tomorrow or did you end up starting classes this week?
if not, hang out with me at work.
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| o12. |
[10 Sep 2009|12:29am] |
[warded to blythe]
tomorrow. you got gus covered? better if you can do it without him suspecting somehow. and make sure he's got an alibi and shit if they investigate.
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| o11. |
[23 Aug 2009|09:34pm] |
[warded to slytherin girls]
will sent me a baby cat. i named it cakes.
i'm not beating him up for like... at least two weeks. so don't ask.
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| o10. |
[20 Aug 2009|10:03pm] |
[warded to charis, blythe, orson, adrian]
okay, so i'm working on that project for mr. lestrange, and i need a few things for next week:
- exploding liquid, you know the kind that if you drop a vial, you're fucked
- poisons & potions, don't need to be deadly, but should be able to get people real fuckin' sick, either by drinking/eating it, or sniffing it
- any cursed items that you might be able to find. doesn't matter what, as long as i can carry them somewhere safely and it can fuck up some people who touch it by accident.
i'll let him know you helped, if you want, but with my dad being a pussy since his bank account was frozen, i don't have access to this shit. plus, i think i'm #1 suspect considering i've gotten the worst sentence of anyone yet.
and if you have any other ideas about how to stall the hogwarts reconstruction and make it look like an accident, lemme know as soon as you can.
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| oo9. |
[20 Aug 2009|12:49am] |
[warded to rabastan lestrange]
okay, so, thanks to all the fucking trials, it's been hard to figure this all out plus according to some berks i'm kind of dumb but if i can get ahold of some of that really bloody sensitive liquid that'll explode on impact, i bet i can set it up to go off with the people rebuilding the west wall. there's always loads there because it was one of the most destroyed, and it'll look like it just collapsed.
charis also suggested maybe some potions and poisons all thrown together that could get some people really sick - maybe i can put it in the juice they serve everyday at lunch, or if there are some that affect people by just a sniff, we could get loads sick.
cursed objects wouldn't be a bad idea too. my dad might have a couple connections, but since the battle he's been being watched real close. have any ideas where to get ahold of this shit stuff? and are the ideas any good to begin with?
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